Just Smile

It is so easy to get mad when things don't go your way. It is so easy to cry when frustration consumes you. Yet, both anger and sorrow drain you of your energy. So rather smile about the blessings you do have and be thankful that shows how strong you are. That is what I am going to do....I may not be in China today like my fellow volunteers but I will smile for them and be excited for the new opportunity about to come my way! Hope you all shred a smile today 

This week is supposed to be the week my placement officer gives me my country offer. I realize I said the same thing last week as I had thought was the case; clearly was mistaken. But, I spoke with Hannah on Thursday and she said early this week she would program details and expectations for a country post for me to look over and decide whether to accept. I am slightly afraid I stuck my foot in my mouth and let my frustration speak. I was asked my preferences Latin America or somewhere else, be a health volunteer or a teacher. And my response was I am openminded for anywhere, granted I have taken spanish for close to 10yrs so picking that up would be easiest; however the only factor that mattered to me was earliest departure. Are you shaking your head at me, probably as I am after rereading our emails. I just don't want to wait till beginning of the year when there are the most available open slots for programs. 

If fate decides that I am not meant to depart till January I shall accept it but in the mean time I'd like to do something work wise I enjoy; not just work to have a job. Another volunteer has inspired me to look into picking up moving to another state or heck country and search there. She is going to Australia for 6months and hopes to find employment there until her departure in Jan. Talk about brave, exciting, adventurous, etc. I want to do something similar. I have already given up my job and recreational memberships around me, I feel if I do not depart end of Summer that is another sign I need a change in scenery. Okay so I shouldn't think too much until I receive word this week. 

Last note:

I am so overwhelmed with love from those who have reached out and even offered for me to come getaway with you. Your offer is being considered and I hope to visit each of you if time and money allow this summer :) I am blessed to have friends like you!